Hi everyone!✨⠀ I think it’s time to get a bit vulnerable, and speak about my journey with anxiety. I will admit I was hesitant to post this due to my own fear of being judged but I realise that sharing our own journey can not only help ourselves but truly help others at the same time.
So, here’s my story (in a nutshell)……
For as long as I can remember I have had anxiety. When I was younger I didn’t know that’s what it was, but looking back it all makes sense.
There was no specific trigger or traumatic event for my anxiety. I had an extremely happy childhood & came from a stable family with plenty of friends around me growing up. I did all the normal things a kid would do.
I just was…anxious.
As years went on I thought I was the ONLY one that thought the way I did & struggled with certain things that others found effortless. I carried this secret with me and guarded it with shame, guilt & a lot of pain.
At age 15 I had my first panic attack. I remember feeling a rush of fear enter my body & I felt like I had no control over it. This would be the first panic attack of many to come in the future.
My panic attacks would be so severe that I was rushed to the hospital numerous times thinking that it was a heart attack (bcause for a lot of people that’s what they think is happening during one). The symptoms were so intense. I would feel like my heart was beating out of my chest, my whole face and hands would go numb, my breathing so fast to the point of almost passing out & I would shiver and shake uncontrollably.
But the worst feeling was the loss of control over your own body.
At 18 I went on medication & had tried everything to help but I still had this anxious cloud over me. Fast forward 15 years I finally found the one thing that actually gave me hope that things can change (& still are) which was speaking to a Wellness Coach @the_anxiety_wellness_queen – It inspired me research further into Health & Wellness & do a Wellness Coaching course to help others.
I literally noticed a difference in a couple of sessions just by noticing my thoughts and starting to do a few mindset shifts and techniques.
I also started to meditate and do yoga this year which has really contributed to the outcome.
I really believe that it is not just one thing however that has helped, but a combination of things that help achieve the outcome.
Finally noticing a huge improvement in myself this year gave me hope and set me free. It felt so empowering to know that I was actually in control not my anxiety. Because I would always believe the opposite. And I want to remind you too that you can begin to live with more calmness and happiness and take control of your life. Even thought anxiety may be telling you that you can’t change don’t listen to it…YOU CAN! It made me want to keep going and continue this journey to bettering myself and improving my quality of like.
We can all do our part to help spread the word and support mental health awareness!
Remember it doesn’t happen over night, it is a journey.💜💜